CHRISTMAS IN AUGUST

As Nancy moved around the room making last minute preparations, she exuded a fluttery nervousness.  Her short leather skirt clutched her shapely thighs, making each step shorter than usual.  She had the sensation several phones rang simultaneously, and she couldn’t decide which one to answer first.  If she didn’t calm down, Curtis would know he’d unnerved her.  They both knew her body language had always been an open window to her interior landscape.  She glanced around the room, trying to ignore the Christmas tree in the corner.  She hoped Curtis wouldn’t comment on the fact she was still celebrating Christmas in August. Continue reading “CHRISTMAS IN AUGUST”

My Inheritance

My mother is dying. There are shuffling noises overhead coming from her bedroom. She has cancer, and her death is imminent. I am her only child. We never liked each other.

I stare out the window at my large backyard covered in a crust of ice.

The bird feeder is nearly empty. I know I must replenish it, but I can’t command my body to move.

Before my seventy year-old mother moved in, I thought I’d continue working and hire a nurse to care for her. I wavered.  In the back of my head I wondered if we might find an emotional connection before it was too late. In the end, I convinced the senior partners’ at my law firm that it would be better to work at home for a while and take care of her myself.

Now I see my wish to wring more from our relationship as foolhardy. It’s elusive, like an important thought I can’t recall that hovers in the back of my mind. Now I just want to get through this miserable time and have it end. I’m so tired my teeth ache.

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